Today has been the realest. Normally I don’t post Debbie downer things. I like to keep things positive and happy! I don’t want my blog to have that type of feel. However, today I will make an exception! So, I am going to take you all on this roller coaster of a day I’ve had. Get ready.
I woke up at 3:30 am to get Mady up and to the airport to go to Florida with her dad for the week. So my emotions started way too early today. This time was better than last time though! Last time when I took her it was her first time being away from home for that long and it was her first flight! Eek! Mama bear mode kicked in and I bawled my eyes out the whole way out of the airport and the whole way home. Haha, this is no joke! This time went pretty good. I only cried for a few minutes on the way home and was able to hold all tears in until I got to the car! That way it’s way less embarrassing, right!?
She was oh so excited though! This girl would not stop talking. She was being so funny!
After I left the airport I came home and waited for the lab to open so I could go get more blood work to see what is going on with this baby and where my levels are now.
Did that, came home and Greg left for work. I am so thankful that he has such an understanding work family that make it possible for him to have stayed with Jaxson & Rowan while I was all over the world this morning.
After Greg left for work I started to get very crampy. It got to the point where it was like labor contractions! All this is happening while I am trying to tend to Rowan and Jaxson. Ouch!
Not long after all of this unfortunately baby bean didn’t stick. As soon as it happened my cramps instantly stopped.
It took a little bit to sink in. I have never experienced this before. I have had a chemical pregnancy before but never a miscarriage like this.
Not long after this all happened my amazing OB called and told me that my HCG was now down from 700 to 500.
So we discussed what had happened and she made me understand it a lot better.
I will still have my follow up ultrasound and blood work again next Friday to make sure levels are going back down to normal.
Once again, I want to thank everyone for accepting my openness. I know it is never easy when these things happen. Life is hard and sad but I do know that I am very lucky for my three beautiful healthy babies and I know that one day when the time is right we will get to complete our family. This just wasn’t the time.
I also want to thank a very special friend for dropping lunch off for Jaxson and Rowan with a special note and a huge bag of chocolate! These are the kind of people I want in my life!! You all are the best and everyone’s kind words and thoughts have meant so much to us! Thank you to ever single one of you!
The Florence Family