Since our miscarriage in June we have been trying to get pregnant with our 4th and final baby.
I had already given up hope for this month and was pretty sure I was out for the month and would be trying again next month.
In fact, I made an appointment with my doctor next week to discuss trying to get pregnant and maybe having my hormones tested.
For about a week now I have been having very unusual vivid dreams.
I usually don’t have dreams or remember them except when I’m pregnant.
So, when I woke up November 1st after remembering my crazy dream I thought “hmm, might as well take another test.”
There was a good chance since this month I was able to catch ovulation with the Clearblue ovulation kit.
I’ve already spent way too much money on several pregnancy tests this past year so I went with a cheapie from the Dollar Store this time.
The kids and Greg were outside playing and I took this test and to my surprise I saw a VERY faint POSITIVE.
Now at this point I thought maybe The Dollar Store was f*cking with me. Haha!
Go figure the one time I buy one from there it gave me the faintest positive!
Obviously I had to make a fast run right after that to Target and spend about $30 on some Clearblue and First Response! Haha!
When I got home I took almost all of those and they all came back clearly positive! YAY! I’m so excited with happy tears at this point!
The next day I went into the Doctor for some lab work to check levels.
My HCG was only 18 and my progesterone looked good and the on call nurse said that for only being about 4 weeks those were normal numbers.
As the night went on I began over thinking everything.
Wondering if I’ll miscarry again.
Wondering if my numbers were too low.
Wondering if I should be having more symptoms by now.
So much worry and curiosity that I never would have had before my miscarriage.
I went to sleep last night and woke up this morning hoping to feel just a little pregnant.
When I woke up I didn’t feel any different at all.
I went ahead and got the kids off to school and ran to Target to make myself feel a little better and buy some Christmas decor. HAHA!
It was working pretty well, I stocked up on some cute stuff!
Then it hit me out of nowhere! I took a sip of my coffee that I drink every day and I thought I was going to vomit in the middle of Target.
I was so happy to be feeling something that made me feel pregnant but at the same time I was petrified of being stuck in Target with Rowan while I was sick.
We darted out of there as fast as we could and of course picked the slowest line and caught all of the red lights on the way home. HA!
I literally had my head hanging outside the car window on the way home for air.
I was hot and sweaty and so so nauseous! Ugh!
I’ve never in my life been so excited to feel so terrible.
Now, let’s have us a baby!
I hope sharing this gives some hope.
Hope to all the women that reached out to me about their miscarriage’s or issues with infertility.
When I shared about our miscarriage I had so many wonderful people reach out to us and send good vibes and pray and so much more.
We were so grateful and still are!
My blog means so much to me and I am so happy that I have somewhere to go and tell our story.
I can’t wait to see where this journey takes us and I will be sharing the whole ride on the blog.
Send some sticky baby dust my way!
I will go back next week for more lab work and will have a follow up on the blog about the results!